very raw thoughts on quitting my job

How would you know if it's time to quit your job?

I quit mine two weeks ago because there were days when I felt guilty snatching work hours to go to Makati for job interviews. it may have been a lame reason, so impractical even, to resign when I had seen no light of a new job accepting me yet. But rather than shortchanging the company, i went penniless but fair.

For a time I had projected an image if affluence like how the company expects of its employees. i had saved much in fact, as galant dinner discussions with clients were all on the company. for this generosity we lovingly personify the company as "Papa G." It was never easy to let go of a piece of the wealth that Papa G *imposed on our lifestyles. who wouldn't want to be rich?

but i wasn't happy. i just din't have any significant fiber in me that would weave nicely and effectively into the world and culture of sales. for five months of being a "field worker" in legal parlance, i was so alone that to cope up with this loneliness, i detached cmpletely from myself and talked their talk. but ever so stubborn, my usual self would slip out and i would be misunderstood and unappreciated. so most of the time i resorted to shushing myself so as to be safe; i ended up being a loner, silently fornicating about my aspirations that were far from what sales offered me.

before the awful fornication continued, i decided to quit, they say, the training i went through to get in this multinational was a month and a half of going through the eye of a needle and it's crazy to let go of what you worked hard for, just like that. well i enjoyed training, but i found out didn't like the job; before i becme a liability to the company due to a lack of passion and drive for work, i left.

however my leaving was one thats thankful to GSK and my amazing boss for an experience full of insight, impressed with the company's highly ethical work culture and (blush, blush) very good looking colleagues.

after my last GSK day, i've been throwing all my cares to the wind, living by faith. that week, i had been going through interviews with a corporate NGO, which was the first i ever applied to after coming back from a project abroad in June last year.

the NGO had already sent me to medical and psychological exams, but i wasn't sure if I would be hired. I was only 75% sure, but the 25% could still have been a significant force of rejection. but hey, my faith in God was, and is, 100%.

i still don't know if my decision of leaving GSK was the right path to follow; not until after three years. but i'm just all praises to a miracle-working Force because after two weeks of calm recollection, rest and reading, I'll be working again. On Monday, I will start doing communications work for this corporate-led NGO...work i've always known, work that i love. :)